Sorrow is the feeling of deep distress causes by loss, disappointment, or other misfortune suffered by oneself or others. It is a feeling like no other. You feel it burden you to the core. It sits deep in your stomach and heart making it unbearable to breathe or move. You feel paralyzed. You look into the distance and wonder if this is what dying feels like. I’ve felt sorrow before. You sit and wonder if it will ever get better. It feels like the end of the world. With every breath you take, you feel as if a piece of you dies a little shriveling away with the wind. When you are lost in your deep dark hole of sorrow, you tend to think you are the only one to have ever experienced this retched feeling from hell. As an artist, I believe my job is to help people understand that they are not the only ones to feel this way. Unfortunately, it is a valid feeling all humans beings and animals experience at one point in their lives.
I believe as an artist I am able to relate to this week’s topic from personal matters. By having that credibility of knowledge as to how sorrow feels, it helps add onto my tools of creativity for my work. When it comes to portraying sorrow in my art, I have an understanding on what my goal is. Talking in terms of visuality, I believe that sorrow is grey and blurry. When I think of the word “sorrow”, I see grey tones, shadows, darkness, starkness as well as blurs. When I experienced sorrow, everything in my surroundings felt like a blur. The sounds became inaudible. My sense of touch went numb. It felt as if I had fallen into a deep lonely hole of despair being crushed by gravity where no one, or anything in that matter, could save me from.
My drawings reflect how I feel sorrow in my heart and mind: as a blurry jumbled crushing mess. There is this dark void in the center of all that blur and numbness where all other feels are lost in, sort of like a black hole as you seen in the drawing on the right. You can feel this overwhelming feeling of despair crushing you down and you are left unable to move or cry for help, as seen in my drawing on the left. Still, that blurriness and anguish kill you bit by bit becoming one of many silent killers.
Thank you for such a personal post. It is in depth and shows your connection to the subject matter as an artist. However, it does not talk about how you might address it in light - can you please comment on this blog and talk a little more about this feeling/state of mind, in terms of light. It is truly a great post but missing that element. Please email me once you have posted the comment. You can also edit the blog if you want but a comment will work as well.
ReplyDeleteIn terms of lighting, I would address this word by using stark light, shadows and textures to create that feeling of being trapped, unable to escape and have that visualization of gravity pushing you down.
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